No mood// scare

No modd, no mood, no mood... I really no mood. I feel stress, i feel saad and i feel tired. Yesterday I slept around 12 in the midle of the night but i woke at 4 o'clock in the morning. I do not know why... When I close my eyes I sleep well,but... This trouble long time never happened to me already. But it have been happen always.
Beside, I also feel so emo, I suddenly feel ike don't want to talk and escape from people. Am I crazy??? Now I just feel like I want skip away from here. But I know I got no one bring me run away except myself. Run away from a place need to have big brave and money. Those thing are I don't have.
Always someone told me, now the thing I own is not mine. The thing you want go to get by yourself. Yeah~ I trying hard now. The way become sucessful in my life. Although now I not yet know what my life going to be, but the paople who control my life is not someone else is me.
A writer when holding his pen they can write a good story. The pen is on their hand. ending of the story happiness or sadness is depend on the holder. I am holding the pen, due to I want to write my life become colourful.

ps: I not the types of person easily to fall down and failing down. Sometime, I just need time to stand me up again.
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Today, I went out from student house. I relize that the gate was opened big big as normal. Beside that, don't know whose came in the house and smoked in the hall and when the people went out but not locked the door[ include the wood door]. And the time, I was alone at home. And I dont know who is that.
DANGEROUS!!!!
Recently, because once of my housemate is doing Degree in Engineering and they have group assignment, then they do it here.But I not mind. However, why they keep not lock the door? If I not here, is it they just left it open like this? In this house, almost each one have own laptop. This never mind, if SOMETHING happen then who gonna to take the responsible?

ps: I told my 'housemate' many time locked the door, why she so stubbron??
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A movement ago, I feel SOMETHING. However i thinking this house's history going to happen again. Not that scare because i normal for this. ^^

ps: want to know what that?? Ask me personality. ^^