Sad

There was two sad news was happened recently. I really shocked when I was knew about it. Both also the same thing. It make me so scare I will lost my parents. Their Dad just dead in short. SHOCK!! Yet, I feel so sorry because I cannot attend the funeral.

Even I experienced that my family member disappear from one by one in front of my eyes and year by year but yet I still cannot stand their painfulness inside their feeling. Because they are more painful then me. And me cannot compare with them.

After I not went back last month and I'm stayed in my auntie's house for around a month. One week back I got the news this bad news. Then I starting to miss home, miss my dad and mom...
I feel so scare I'll lost them just in a movement time. I scare I cannot see them and argue with them. I know that in a family must have some arguing. But yet there are still have some memory are fully happiness. I cherish the memory. Those memory's feeling other people cannot notice and understand that.


ps: I miss you dad and mom... I miss my home also... T.T