27.07.2011

Today....What is the story???

I happy that I have 1 or 2 friends sharing my life story. I really cherish for that.

Today, in the meeting, one of my colleague asking me a question, she said...

Y: Shiney, actually I wants to ask you a question. Are you recently in stress? It might related with you personal problem... but you also can not answer to this question.

Shiney: erm....( my heart telling me, cover...you needs to wear mask to protect yourself). No, actually it nothing just feel some stress.( I can't tell you, because I'm not believe on you guys anymore)

Y: ok loh...

Her face was showing to me, she not believe me. Yeah~~ I know. But I really don't wants to share. Somehow in front of my manager. She is believing to 'HER'. Anywhere, a hole in my heart is painful. I try to treat it, but still hard to cure. I think I needs sometimes.

When on the way back, my manager told me... She given some signal for me. I also given some signal. This situation like playing some game. Its called 'HEART TALK'. You needs to know very good strategies to protect your heart and when you get attached you have to learn hoe to cure it in short while and try to hired your truth face in front.

Manager: Shiney, don't think that you are not important. Actually, you are important. You can helps your service manager and those service engineers.

I think it is my "BAG". A very heavy bag...

ps: I feel tired to play the game. If not continues playing, I will get 'shot' deeply and kit out from the game. Forever, I won't success in my life.

同性恋

今天是星期一。一个全新的开始。上个星期可能是我的挑战吧！很多事情发生。事情的发展弄得我好累。好累。。我不知道要想谁去倾诉。。可是我唯一对不起的是我做错了。我在这间公司里竟然变成同性恋者。哎~~算了吧！反正我都习惯了。就算我没有提及同性恋的事情，他们也会把握联想到哪一方面。我真的搞不懂……为什么他们会那么想。搞不懂！算了吧！

果然

看完了我朋友的故事。我的心情突然变得很沉重。我不知道怎么形容我现在的心情。这种心情有些像得到了自己想要的答案可是却像忽略的答案。

优于还记得我们相遇知的那一年是十二岁。或许你比我早注意到我，可是从小在男人堆里打混的我，没有去注意到你渺小得你。六年级我们认识，你是多么的男人婆，与我不相上下。你告诉我说：你从小到大不喜欢穿裙子。唯一穿裙子时就是去学校的时候，可是你还是有穿短裤在里边。

中学时期,你和我可以算是不打不相识的。那时你为了保护我也为了保护我们，你出手。我只是半夜一个小角色在旁儿看着你。原来我也有那个荣幸认识那么有男子气概的女生。还记得，我不小心让你们看见我流泪，你心疼的样子。。。我错觉了。你压抑着自己。我当时还傻傻的以为你是真心的为了我而心疼。（其实你不是，你心疼的模样与别人的不一样。你隐藏着某种某种不能告诉人的秘密吧！）。

为什么我总开玩笑说：I think I'm lessbian.是因为我发觉你对lessbian这个字眼很敏感。你敏感时候，从事压抑着自己。我尝试了好多次想让你释放出来。可是都失败了。

记得有一次你告诉我你有秘密瞒着我，我告诉你说：Take your time。当你想告诉我的时候再告诉我。其实我是在逃避。

没有想到，我的猜测是真的。

ps：当时我是多么的希望你不是。我会接受全新的你，若果你真的……真的……确定自己没有错番木瓜感情。

Nothing Special

Recently.... nothing special.... haha....

What to write? So much of thing but do know where to begin...

Lazy to write or do want to write?

Is forgotten what to write....

Whatever.... No one is reading my blog.

One thing happened on yesterday was I'm flu....

好累！

做人为什么要那么累？我现在才真正的了解……真的是我的错吗？

What does it mean? That mean you work along this time got no improvement.

It is I really not improve? My performance is not that good? I follow everything you are given. I not following then you many ideas... I follow ended up is my fault and you said I not improving. What you needs me too do for you? How can I improve myself? What does you mean by I got no improvement?

I feeling so tired here. I can't share my idea. I know you are working for 10 years long but can you please upgrade your mind?Please try to accept much idea from new even they are no working experience? Can you please look for the idea seriously?

ps: Well I know..... you impossible to do that....

well

Well~~~ thinking what to write.

Well~~~ too much of things needs to write down.

Well~~~ where am beginning mine story.

Well~~~ why been upset?

Well~~~why been happy while you are upset?

Well~~~tiring.

Well~~~nothing will deal with it.

Well~~~ mask-ed.

Well~~~how?

Well~~~the conclusion.

ps: Well.....