Cruel

I would stress for this month due to I have spend some of my money for the rental of the apartment. It is huge and heavy for me. I'm thinking why am I so stupid... I was thinking am should not make this step... Am thinking... where to make money. Why everything I have to always from the beginning again, again and again again...

Well, I have face to the reality. The reality always is cruel. Yeah~~ I'm right. It is cruel. But me not cruel so I might lost. Yes, I'm loose...