Recently...

Recently I felt very tired. Is it because I cannot sleep well? Or I feel that I'm wasting my time to working here? I really feel sleepy, I do not know what will be going on after this month. I do not know am I ahead near to my dream?
Last weekend I went to my frend's house. I really had fun in that weekend. But sadly, I still not efford to treat my friend even one meal. I'm failure. Me and her bullshit a lot. However most of the time we did'nt talked so much because our GOOD SENSE does not needs any communication then we can understand each other. Is it? haha...I guess yes!
I break my promise. I promised her I'll go to her country in this year. But I can't. Right here I talked to myself in year 2012 I'll go Vietnam!!! I swear! By now, so sorry N.

ps:sleepy now...

Yesterday

Yesterday I was summited my resignation letter. This is first time I wrote in proper english's letter. ERM....My feeling: HEADACHE. Why??? Because I scare and I don't know how I ging to start my writing. I'm gave a broken reason for him. When I passed the letter for him, my boss just said: wao~so fast give me resign letter. So,which mean he can scan me I will leaving and cannot last long in his company. What can I said is He so smart.

Now before I leaving he more then enough to use me for helping him check comapny's account. Use all my energy. This is the part I DISLIKE very much! It must be very careful and use your mind so much! Then you needs to count. It is a heavy job! This is an accountant's job also, but is not mine! If I know you will asked me to checking all the account, then I would'nt let you know and help you checked your account before. Nvm this is experience, I told myself.

Bosses you are smart but you don't know how to keeps a good staff for your company. And you do not know how to catch a people heart and understanding. I wish you all the best in your business.

ps: prey for you.

Thinking....

First thing in my mind WHO AM I??? Not only you cannot understand me sometime I also don't know who am I. Sometime I know myself very well sometime I don't know at all. For example, passed few week I watched a Hong Kong drama<>. Why do I likes that drama so much? What does I likes it? I love it, first, I likes the styles and fesyen make up and dress up in that drama. I love the JAckies's character. It is similar with myself and I jealous she have the life like that even at the end,she choose to give up from her LOVE life. However, I know that she will do that. Because in her mind or plan don't have any step is planing for build up a home.

For me, I don't care about love for now.I admit I scare about love. Love will make you blind and crash your mind. Not everyone can accept two person live. Not everyone needs a home.Not every women needs guys. Not all guys needs women. Why do getting marry? Married just a paper provement for such person. You can married also can divorse.

I know I this is wrong. I don't know. Not less person said that: You are high requirement, I spainless to date with you. Why do you tell me that? I not give you change you need to create your chance for yourself. Is not you cannot reach my requirement is you do not understand what I needs. Is not you do not understand is you not that like me so you do not spend too much. Ask your heart. Am I correct? If you really likes someone sure you will find out that way to get that thing you really likes so much.

ps: If you really likes the thing so much you must try your best to get. Not for any prove just because DON'T let you regreting.

confusing

Be honest, I did like my current job. However, GOD bless me and now appear second chance for me. But I affear. I do not know this chance I should ake or should'nt take. Well, in this world not such thing is free lunch. Between I need to go there for interview that is a problem. I do not know that place and I totaly no idea what will be going on at that place. The living cost there is higher then my recent place.
I cheeck the map from the web, yet not showing me transportion is enter there. Except from personal car. Anywhere I need to go. This is my chance. I needs to take it. I think this is the challenge for me. I wish that job is better and I will get well in my job field.

ps: GAMBATEH!!!

一个字：闷！

很多人在读书的时候总是会想快点出来工作，以为可以得到解脱。可是，当你进入了社会大学才知道不期然。不是你所期待，你所想象的那样。本人现在的工作真的好无聊！好就好在我的办公室里只有我一个人。怀处在于，没有挑战。
那么辛苦读了比大马教育文凭高一级的书出来。竟然……我忽然觉得我有点浪费！真的！可是，我根本就身不由己。我没有选择的余地。我只能说机会错过了一次就没有了。

ps:希望我能挨过吧！

Updated

I started my new life. Is it happy for me? I think I know the answer. I do not know. I do not know what? Unfortunately a clear answer in my heart.I needs to feel sorrow or happy? Because I know my direction clearly. However, I cannot make it truth. I have been choosen this type of life just because a forcing energy come from outside.
I do not know I can stand on this life? Well I will try it. Wish to....

new life

Actually my new life make me speechless. WHY??? Because I have no choice. I'm always asking myself is it this is the life I wish to? A clear answer appear in my heart. I notice that. Well when you stand with me you will know life is forcing you become like something and yet you have to plays the role.

But so far, since I started my new life I been alone. Is it this is called independent? I not wish to...I miss my old life. This is not the types of live I want. Even seen so free but not free. I lost my freedom!

May be you will say that when I working I 'll lost freedom but...Well never mind!

ps::(